Who is this person?

Over Labor Day Weekend I attended my 20 Year High School Reunion, and I also got to spend some very enjoyable time with my family. The home I grew up in burnt down a few years ago and my mom came across a box filled with my old letters and diaries. I picked them up this trip and read the three diaries in the box. These particular volumes started on my 16th birthday until I was about 20 years old. I have shared excerpts from diaries I kept before that, much to everyone's entertainment. But these diaries weren't quite so funny. Certainly there were a few pages that were pretty entertaining, but for the most part, I discovered a young girl that I had almost forgotten about. I was so surprised at how much anger and rage and hatred was bubbling inside of me, just under the surface. Where my diaries from 13 and 14 expressed more pain and hurt, I could easily see how that turned into something darker. I was very shocked at the emotions dripping off every page. When I read those diaries, I see this young girl with no direction, feeling utterly unloved and alone, who turned the pain into hate. I see clearly how lost I was. I was searching for what would fill the void and coming up empty at every turn. I was surprised as well at the horrible choices that I made, that time and time again only served to hurt me all the more. I praise God that He pulled me out of the mire and the muck and set my feet upon a rock! I spent years searching for what was in front of me the whole time! Thank you God for opening my eyes and saving me, yes even me!